I have tried to get to my ideas typed in to this blog, and each day, I say to myself: Today is the day! No such luck. Sorry, team!
In April, I returned to work face-to-face, and it has been a bit of a change for me. Previously, I worked from home where I had more personal freedom to work and rest across the whole day.
Going back to my classroom and office requires that I orchestrate my life down to the smallest of details. My lunch and snacks are prepared the night before, and my oatmeal and blueberries are in the pint jar ready to heat. My book bag is packed, keys are ready and easily visible, and my cell phone is charged.
Since I have no feeling in my hands, getting dressed takes an extra effort. I try my best to select my outfit the night before, lay it out, but then in the morning, I might have second thoughts. Those second thoughts can bring out a sense of panic and challenge me to keep cool. It is so stupid. No one should worry about a damn outfit. However, I need to be able to move in that outfit and shoes and be comfortable in front of my classroom. I never worried about this much before. Balance issues slow me down and make me sit to dress and put my shoes on.
Honestly, some days I just want to crawl back into my comfy bed. Then, I think of those relying on me and expecting me to show up and be on the teaching stage. I have such awesome students; they fuel my work.
I just have to come to some new terms: Some days are harder than others. Some days will be okay.
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